show me how to not feel pain

I try to breathe.
Nothing's the same.
Since you left
All I know is pain.

You left me in the cold.
Left to a place I can't follow
You've left me so lonely
you left me hollow

I thought we were gonna grow old together
you left so young.
when I heard that one word,
"suicide" It really stung.

I thought you were happy
was it all a mask?
I thought love is supposed to last until the end
Is it the end? I ask.

In my dreams I still see you
standing by my side
holding my hand.
Before you died.

In my dreams you're still here
I'm never alone.
I can escape to my dreams
before my heart becomes stone.

You showed me how to love
you showed me how to breathe again.
You showed me how to live
now show me how to not feel pain.

This feeling of pain
is more then I ever knew...
I wish I had died
instead of you.