The F-cking awesome liar.

If only I could find the words to say,
So I don't sound so dumb when i do,
If only I could figure out the way,
to express my feelings to you.

I love you
more then you'll ever know,
Because I'm not strong enough,
to let my feelings show.

I can't trust you,
I don't know why,
I'm too scared,
to even try.

I wish we weren't 'just friends',
I wish we were more then that,
emotions drop like a brick,
as I fade to black.

It kills me to see you with another girl,
Cause I know I love you more then she ever can.
Yes I know it makes me look bitter and jealous,
maybe I am.

Maybe I'm just jealous,
because I don't know if I could ever have you,
I'll probably hold this to my grave,
knowing you never knew.

I can't believe you fall for my lies,
When I say I just want you as a friend,
The truth is I'm too scared,
that our friendship would end.

So I'll just watch you from afar,
as you fall in love with her.
If you think that I just like you as a friend,
I must be a fucking awesome liar.