SolitaryChild

I feel my heart beating I feel my lungs breathing I feel my eyes seeing I return to human being You woke my from my nightmare gave me beautiful air You cause me to stare because I've never seen anything like you anywhere You're funny and strong beyond belief You're beautiful when you sleep I give you my soul to keep I've fallen so so steep You're amazing in every way I could talk to you all day I want you to be happy and that way to stay No matter what price I pay

I wish I knew All the things I wanted to say and follow through To express them in the best way I've fallen apart And I never knew I wasn't even together from the start Life is war And I know exactly what I'm fighting for You make me believe I can go my whole life without staring at the floor Like I used to... Now I don't even know if I deserve you This is my heart Take it its all I have left I've been left broken so many times I'm surprised if its something you'll even want at all Choke on my tears fight them as much as I can because you're not there to catch them when they fall I regret it The pain is much worse on the inside than the agon

I was once a bitter old bitch That didn't know what love was Some kind of cursed witch Who backed away just 'cause. I didn't think I had a heart Until I realized it was broken I knew it was fucked up from the start Until those words were spoken. I found love in warm arms soft kisses and lovely smiles Protecting me from harm making me feel good for a while. My dead heart started to beat as the blood returned to the veins You made me a different person You made me human. And i would do anything to see you grin Sell my soul for just a laugh Give up the world to touch your skin cut my heart in half and give you the other piece to prove it to you

Sometimes I want to cut myself open and look within see who I am and who I've been I have lived my whole life in such sin and I never really ever fit in. Does my heart still beat? Is there really a hell under my feet? Will I end up there when I'm six feet deep? Is there any sanity left in me to keep? I should breathe but its getting hard sometimes I wish I didn't have a heart Because its always been fucked up from the start and I'm starting to want to rip people apart. Am I losing my mind? Am I going blind? Am I stuck in a time that was never mine? I'm cold and cursed I kinda wanna end up in a hearse I went to the doctor, ended up killing th

when I look back and see how fucked up I used to be The deranged rhymes of the old me Man was I fucking crazy. Then I ask myself, have I really changed? Am I still that person deep down? am I still insane? I don't know, the anger was canceled out by pain But I wonder if inside, I'm still the same Does this monster still breathe deep down waiting, just waiting to come back around? I'm scared of myself Do I need help? Am I a danger to everybody's health? Am I a monster deep down inside Am I pretending to be alive when really I died?

Don't cry, don't cry or I'll stab a needle in my eye Don't feel the pain its all the same what a shame, what a shame My eyes burn, my body's cold Heart yearns, I'm growing old But I play my game, pretend nothing's wrong acting like my feelings aren't lyrics to another sad song I'm not good at lying, not good at trying more and more I feel like I'm dying But its nothing, I'm fine. I'm just a little broken But don't worry, My story goes unspoken I won't cry, Tired of being weak I'll hold it back, not let the tears leak Just take a deep breath, I'll be okay Its all good, just another day Its nothing, I'm fine, trust me I just wish I was as stro

I'm like a axe I'll split your brain in half always having to have the last laugh Silently demented to be exact. My brain is quite insane Still remains the same far from plain Drowning in shame and blame that comes back to pain whenever I take a trip down memory lane. I speak in rhymes to buy myself time writing twisted lines to try and bind The minds of those who did me wrong acting kind but you don't know my song. Why try to die if you're dead inside Why lie, I wish I was high, then I wouldn't feel like I died I cry too much, I must be weak Brain fries, So I've become a freak My heart's become cold, I think Its frozen over Fallen apart, gr

All that remains Is the scattered pieces of my brain I could pick them up and try to piece them together but it would never be the same Use duct tape and super glue Needles and sowing thread too But it would never be new and if it was, I wouldn't know what to do Maybe I'm just damaged outside and in Maybe I'm just soaked in sin Even if I'm not evil anymore, I was way back when and that evil side of me fights as hard as it can It tries to protect me from further damage done It tries to keep me away from everyone I locked my feelings down, never to see the sun I'm actually suffering, but I make it look like I'm having fun Do you know who I a

I still speak even with my mouth sewn shut So many tried to shut me up but its never enough I still see even though my eyes are gone because honestly I've been blind all along I still remember and never forgive fully I still stand up for myself and not let anyone fool me I'm still the monster under the bed Still don't listen to those voices in my head I still hate the world for what its shown I still live my life completely unknown Just trying to get myself in check Picking up the pieces from the wreck I still lie and pretend I'm okay I'm still here no matter how much everyone wants me to go away I'm used to these delusions now and they don'

The air feels so much colder since you've been away I've been sitting here Thinking to myself all day Everything's so dull I can't find the words to say I wish I was in your arms I wouldn't have it any other way Because without you I feel so alone Like I'm wondering through the forest lost, tripping over stones I'm breathing But I dont have a heart beat It won't come back until I'm in your arms A feeling of defeat My mind is blank Of everything besides memories I wish you were here with me I wish you were here with me