Through My Eyes

I drink water all day,
eat ice just to make the stomach pains go away.
I starve, then binge, then throw it all up.
I'm so blinded I don't give a fuck.
This has me inside a cage,
I can't escape from my own rage.

A dark sorrow in my eyes,
Smiling to silence another's cries.
Pretending I am happy,
when I'll never be.

I'll never be beautiful, that I know.
I want to be as pure as snow.
As light as air,
I don't care.
Just make me beautiful please,
I'm begging on my knees.

Ana's got a hold of me,
Making me what I don't want to be.
So I'm crying night and day,
then I remember...

I made myself this way.