If only.

I keep thinking.
If only.

If only I told him I loved him enough.
He wouldn't hate himself.
If only I told him I cared about him.
He wouldn't do stuff bad for his health.

If only I told him how beautiful he was.
He wouldn't starve himself to death.
If only I told him how much he means to me.
He wouldn't want to take his last breath.

If only I told him much I need him.
He wouldn't have picked up that knife.
Just because he thinks he's ugly.
he wanted to end his life.

If only I told him that what his parents did to him
was not his fault one bit.
He wouldn't have wanted to end it.

It must be my fault.
for not showing him enough love.
Maybe if I told him I loved him.
He wouldn't feel all the above.